No Just NO

how I feel about relationships at the moment. Several guys are trying to access my heart while I'm just now officially over a guy I dated 5 months ago.

He set the bar really high for the new guys...I can't help but compare the new guys to him. 

I loved that guy from the first month we dated. He showed me I deserve to be treated like a queen and I refuse to settle for anything less now. (So of course his ass is dumped when he failed to meet the standard he himself set...the irony...It was like false advertising....he was ghostly sweet for the first month. It was like someone gave him a book on "Things Aidyn like" and he followed accordingly, within that first month we dated. Then snapped. Gone~ lolz I think the ghost returned to my side or something afterward.) 

Anyways, I'm extremely independent and self-sufficient. So unless a "boyfriend" has something to offer me more than I can do for myself. I really enjoy "Loneliness" 's company, a bit too much to replace her with a human. 

I've had that mentally since 4 years ago. I remained single for 4 years until I met that guy from 5 months ago who had me open my gates letting a human in...just to be slapped with disappointment. 

I'm just not ready to open my heart up to someone else again. 

Ah~ I miss the gym.