Rekindle 02

How about that~

rekindling the romance for art on Valentine's day. hahah Career first, love comes last.

I was very taken back and hurt actually by how my sisters believed that I was "indecisive" and "unmotivated". 

Oh honeys, you guys chase papers. I chase to create beauty on papers. Your goal in life and mine are two different things so I come off as "lazy" because I mainly stay indoor and do nothing but create art in front of my laptop. I enjoy what I do. One day, this will be my career where I make money off of my art. Even so, for me it won't feel like I'm "working" because I love every moment of drawing (Even if it hurts my hand, I don't care.)

Sure, realistically, I need money to live (Which I am working, not sure what they're talking about) But I also need happiness to live. If I know all the answers to life, I'd be a god. I'm still struggling to figure out how I can be happy in the end of life. The only way I won't suffer is to create art. I was just born and made for this. 

I've seen many art graduates being unemployed however. Which does frighten me. But whatever. Hahah. You can't help what you fall for.

If money was an incentive for me, I wouldn't be an artist. I'd be a doctor. A crappy one, who doesn't care for his patient. T_T If my goal in life is to create art. Isn't that what I already am doing? Unmotivated my ass.